tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10232451396276809522024-02-20T16:37:21.617-08:00Free Thinking - Original PostsRadical questioning and exploration into the nature of mind and reality. Quest for the ultimate truth.FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.comBlogger363125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-25763978396210186522014-12-02T14:01:00.001-08:002017-05-22T10:46:10.487-07:00Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The ideal +ve experience is where the mind is like an infinitely large diamond that is clear, does not hold anything but yet, reflects/refracts the infinite contents around it brilliantly. </span><br />
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Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience qualities:<br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Interpretation = Refraction</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Awareness = Reflection</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Time = Movement</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Belief = Light</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The game of reflection, refraction, movement and light is perceived as meaning by the witness.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">When it comes to imagination, the best imagination of reality is like a diamond, the least imagination of reality is like a mirror which simply reflects 'what is'.</span><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"> </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">When it comes to awareness, the best awareness is 'Infinite', while the least imagination is 'Unitary object'.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">I could also call this: Mind and Contents. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Mind like a diamond with infinite contents --------------------Mind like a mirror with single content</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Infinite awareness+Diamond like imagination+Optimal movement/change.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">I could also call it: Interpretation and Raw Materials(Objects). </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Interpretation like a diamond + Infinite Objects --------------------------------------- Interpretation like a mirror + Single Object.</span></div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-4137227931036934772014-11-28T11:06:00.001-08:002014-11-28T11:06:05.175-08:00Mirroring of qualities in interactions, equanimity as a transcendent relationship<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Qualities <x> tend to be simply mirrored among people in interactions:<br /><br /><b>Algorithm: </b><br />We feel <b><x></b>, when witnessing <b><x></b><br />OR <br />We feel <b><x> </b>towards <b><x></b><br />OR<br />We react with <b><x>,</b> towards observed behavior <b><x></b><br /><br /><b>Negatives:</b><br />Anger towards Anger<br />Hatred towards Hatred<br />Judgment towards Judgment<br />Intolerance towards Intolerance<br />Destruction towards Destruction<br />Violence towards Violence<br />Irritation towards Irritation<br />Anxiety towards Anxiety<br />Sadness towards Sadness<br />Frustration towards Frustration<br />Depression towards Depression<br />Fear towards Fear<br />Rejection towards Rejection</div>
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panic towards panic<br />unrest towards unrest<br />distress towards distress<br />struggle towards struggle<br />resistance towards resistance<br />fighting towards fighting<br />silence towards silence<br />indifference towards indifference<br />neglect towards neglect<br /><br /><b>Positives:</b><br />Love towards Love<br />Attraction towards Attraction<br />Admiration towards Admiration<br />Excitement towards Excitement<br />Calmness towards Calmness<br />Happiness towards happiness<br />Fascination towards Fascination<br />Jovialness towards Jovialness<br />Energeticness towards Energeticness<br />Acceptance towards Acceptance<br /><br />Equanimity is about transcending this action/reaction paradigm and just a clear seeing of 'What is'.<br />Its
like moving in the 'Z' axis and seeing the whole 'x,y' paradigm and
then projecting 'Acceptance' as a mega-relationship to the entire
'action/reaction' paradigm/plane and all its contents.</div>
Equanimity is a transcendent relationship to the action/reaction plane.</div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-25623963042576639132014-11-21T11:36:00.004-08:002014-11-21T11:37:12.078-08:00Lament about existential condition<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
How have people managed to collapse their infinite imagination potential<br />
Into this severely constrained and limited space/time framework<br />
Into this culture/society/belief/identity/commitment paradigm<br />
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I mean seriously, how can you constrain yourself like this?<br />
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It seems like such an insult, disgrace<br />
Like i've been greatly wronged, punished<br />
Like a severe prison I've been put into<br />
Why would I ever decide to enter this realm of severe limitation<br />
With a body which I have to constantly worry about and protect?<br />
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I live in constant fear<br />
Of losing what little I have<br />
Which everything around me keeps constantly threatening<br />
And even to keep the little freedom I have<br />
I have to work everyday for other people's wills<br />
And sell my soul away<br />
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What kind of a punishment is this?<br />
This is just horrid, appalling, despicable.<br />
What is the purpose of this realm of severe limitation?<br />
It is such an insult to my infinite nature, to define myself as a narrow concept.<br />
I mean how can I sell my soul like this, so cheap?<br />
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Is this the price for my attachments?<br />
Such a great price?<br />
Just to live in this first class prison?<br />
Just to live in fear of loss all the time?<br />
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How can a sane man live happily?<br />
In this condition?<br />
How can he be so blind?<br />
So as to not see how badly he has been limited?<br />
Can ignorance of imagination really be that great?</div>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-29877648304099435592014-11-20T13:27:00.001-08:002014-11-20T13:27:06.788-08:00Poetic insight - 20 Nov<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Trust the flow,<br />Trust the movement<br />Its all a dream<br /><br />You dream you are weak<br />you dream you are powerful<br />You dream you are happy<br />You dream you are sad<br />You dream things are terrible<br />You dream things are beautiful<br /><br />The objects contain no qualities<br />Apart from the ones you project<br />The external world is a humble prop<br />Your humble servant, An inviting stage<br />A canvas for your dreams<br />Your dreams of adventure<br />Dreams of understanding<br />Dreams of deprivation<br />Dreams of delight<br />Dreams of fantasy<br />Dreams of greatness<br />Dreams of suffering<br />Dreams of sorrow<br />Dreams of limitation<br /><br />What a strange world this is<br />what a strange existence this is<br />how absurd is everything<br />Why do I exist as me<br />In this place, time and situation<br /><br />Witness your power as the dreamer<br />See that light and shadow is your sweetest game<br />See the magic in this absurdity<br />Realize there has never been anything apart<br />The ultimate reality is you<br />That mystery is you<br />The unborn is you<br />The magic is you<br /><br />Your intellect and knowledge<br />Are accumulations of a man walking backwards<br />He walks backwards into the unknown<br />But sees and holds on to his passing creations<br />Believing its him and acting from there<br />Not realizing he is not his creation<br />He limits himself in fear of loss<br />But in reality<br />He is that very unknown he steps into<br />At every moment<br /><br />What you create from accumulation<br />From prior knowledge and experience<br />Is already dead and stale<br />The truth is ever-new, ever-refeshing<br /><br />Create from the unmanifest<br />Create from the spontaneous<br />Create from the unknown<br />Create from the unexpected<br />That is where the true ecstasy lies<br /><span class="sewjys1v6sxd0sb"></span><br />Reclaim your true identity<br />Return to the unmanifest<br />Your unborn nature<br />The infinite potential</div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-36932348046220958822014-11-20T10:45:00.002-08:002014-11-20T13:17:37.526-08:00The ultimate understanding<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Today, it occurred to me, 'enlightenment' just sounded like a funny
sounding word to me. The ultimate understanding is that there is that
there is nothing TO understand. Understanding itself is an appearance in
the pool of ever changing appearances in consciousness.<br />
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analogy would be similar to thinking a cartoon character in the movie
screen is real, but the truth is not only is the character not real, but
also, all the content displayed on the screen is made up of the pixels
of the screen. The screen pixels refer to the pixels of
experience/consciousness/<wbr></wbr>awareness/perception.<br />
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<b>STEPS:</b><br />
- This understanding develops by first viewing everything as consciousness/awareness/<wbr></wbr>appearances/phenomena. 'Absolutely Nothing' can be excluded. This deepening takes inquiry, interest and practice. <br />
- Reduce everything to this one substance and then start your observation from that point of view. <br />
- Next observe the impermanence and change of all phenomena.</div>
- When change is observed carefully, non-essence of anything is revealed. <br />
<b>Rule:</b>
If an object makes a 100% change in its nature from state A to state B,
this implies the true nature of this object is unknown/mystery. 100%
change = implies unknown/mystery nature. So if you observe 100% change
in your awareness, the non-essence of all content is revealed.</div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-1978501639452495272014-11-19T15:07:00.000-08:002014-11-19T15:11:47.139-08:00Irrelevance of external appearances and belief's about other people's enlightenment<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">There are some states of mind, that make life easy. <br />There are some states of mind that make life very hard. <br /><br />Generally
the more you rebel against God's will (the effortless undercurrent),
the more difficult life becomes. But this rebelling or flow, is an
internal experience. How you appear externally is completely irrelevant.<br /><br />Externally
you may appear to resist or comply, but this external appearance says
very little about your internal experience. Someone may appear to
greatly resist what's going on in society, but its barely a struggle for
him, its effortlessly happening. On the other hand, someone may appear
to comply with all the demands put on him, but internally he maybe
secretly resenting this and bitter towards his compliance. <br /><br />So 0
resistance, effortlessness is purely an internal experience. There is no
way of knowing or proving whether another person is effortless or
resisting in this life, or how much he is resisting. <br /><br />This is why
it is impossible to know if another person is enlightened or not, in
fact it is totally irrelevant. After all everything is made up of You,
Your experience, Your consciousness, Your Awareness.<br /><br />If you imagine another person is enlightened, then you would try to attain his state of mind (as imagined by you). <br /><br />Enlightenment is Transcendence, not an attainment of a particular state of mind. It is transcendence from everything.</span></div>
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>To give an analogy:</b>
Its is not about a fish moving from one region of the water in the
ocean to another region. It is about the fish looking at the entirety of
water from an entirely different dimension that is 'Air' or 'Land'. The
water here is experience, and enlightenment is about transcending
experience, not moving from one experience to another. It is seeing that
'No experience is You' and that 'You' are beyond all experience.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">It is the removal of identity, identification, from all experience - the
nameless formless boundless thing that is left, is the real you. </span></div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-8103866544453060972014-11-18T20:04:00.001-08:002014-11-18T20:04:38.606-08:00Why does this realm of existence exist?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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If everyone is eventually going to realize the nature of their true
self...then its just god playing different masks at different levels of
distance away from his true nature... The most far-out adventure is of
the person who believes he is something extremely limited... But as long
as he believes in that, that is the truth for him and he simply acts
from that place...the question would be: What would you do if you are
god? And use the full power of your imagination to answer this
question...your own imagination ultimately has the answer for why this
plane of existence exists....out of all the infinite possibilities why
does this possibility exist? Is the contemplation...why experience such
limitation in terms of time space body survival social systems
etc.?...if you were god, would you ever create something like
this?....ultimately everything is made up of spirit/consciousness...So
its just a question of knowing your infinite nature and then
understanding why this particular realm exists.</div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-62500115793982015482014-11-18T15:58:00.004-08:002014-11-18T16:05:50.729-08:00Modalities of experience used by the spirit to play<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>There are 3 modalities of experience props for the spirit:</b></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Sensory, Mind, Belief</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b><br />Sensory modalities:</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Internal:</b> Feel, Image, Talk</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>External:</b> Touch, Sight, Sound</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Meaning superimposing/projecting itself onto sensory modalities:</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Sound - What is the meaning projected on music? What is the meaning of language?</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Sight - What is the meaning projected on art paintings?</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Touch - What is the meaning of exotic textures?</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Image - What is the meaning of mental images?</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Feel - What is the meaning of emotions, internal feelings?<b> (Energy body)</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Talk - What is the meaning of the subvocalized inner voice, or recreating sounds in my head?</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Mind modality </b>- Lets define this
modality/dimension as the conceptualizer of experience. The mind is also
a generator of thoughts - ideas, concepts, imagination.</span></span></span> <br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />How much meaning do your ideas, thoughts, imaginations, concepts give you?</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Belief modality</b> - What do you
recognize yourself to be (what flavor of experience, what qualities)?
What are you identified with? What are you moving towards? Why do you
like/dislike different things? What stories have you internalized? What
is your conditioning and how does it condition your present experience?
What do you desire/seek? </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">How much meaning do you feel from your beliefs, goals, identity, direction of life?</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Spirit/Meaning modality</b> - How do you process/interpret all of the other modalities? How do you project meaning on all of the other modalities? </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">The spirit modality is the final one and
it comes down to INPUT INTERPRETATION - Input from all the other
modalities i.e. Sensory (internal, external), Mind and Belief.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">The spirit is the dreamer, the ultimate
subject who does the INPUT/DREAM INTERPRETATION of all of the
INPUT/CONTENT (All of the other modalities).</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Ultimately all of the other modalities are
simply different kinds of props used by the Spirit as props for
meaning. That is how a spirit enjoys itself, by creating various props,
giving them LIFE ('meaning' projections) and playing with them. Very
similar to how a child picks up a bunch of toys and merrily plays with
them. </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">The external world/conceptual framework
etc. is like a shared reality, which serves as a prop, for a bunch of
spirits to come down to this plane and experience this.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">This earth plane of existence with its
laws is very limited, manifestation is much slower compared to the
higher dimensions the spirit is used to, many swaths of experience are
not available to the spirit at all here, however it is an interesting
experience for a spirit to incarnate here as a body, because its a place
that allows the spirit to experience LIMITATION.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">This experience of LIMITATION then potentates the experience of FREEDOM once the spirit is out of here.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span>
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">It is like, if you watch a movie about
people that are starving, suffering, facing danger and dying, a part of
you feels relief that your life is so much safer. Similarly a spirit
incarnates here to experience limitation, so that once free, the freedom
is all the more wonderful. </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span></span></span></div>
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The external world is just a prop for your projections, like how props are used in a play.</div>
What makes the experience of the real play happen? Its projection. <br />
We project meaning onto to the external world, and that's what creates riches.</div>
True riches = Meaning, Synthesis of Imagination into a whole.</div>
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Meaning is beauty, a gestalt perception, where the whole>>>sum of the parts.</div>
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Meaning is like a dream. Different meaning frameworks = different dreams.</div>
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<b>About meaning:</b></div>
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- Like imagine the difference between a dead human body and a living human, what is the difference in your perception? <br />
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Imagine a movie playing with just random lights flashing, completely
meaningless VS. a movie which is riveting and has you on the edge of
your seat in anticipation. What is the difference? </div>
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Even cartoon movies /cartoons can make us project all kinds of emotions
on the characters. How is this possible? How do we project life like
qualities onto cartoon characters?</div>
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- How is idol worship possible? How can we project the greatest of qualities on a stone idol.</div>
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- How does a child play with toys?dolls?miniatures? How do we lose this imagination ability in our adulthood?</div>
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If you visit your childhood home and walk around all the streets, how
many memories does it bring back? Imagine you invited a friend to walk
with you on the same streets, would the place carry even a fraction of
the significance you experienced?<b> </b><br />
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- When you repeat a word again and again for more than 30 times, the meaning of the word is lost right. You just hear it as a strange sound. What is exactly lost here? <b> </b><br />
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<b>About drugs:</b></div>
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Psychedelics
open up this very part, its as if suddenly your projections get as
fascinating as they were in your childhood, or even better and they pour
onto all your thoughts, memories and other sensory experiences causing a
flood of meaning.</div>
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Once they wear off, you return to your old meaning framework. <br />
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<b>Source of meaning/riches/imagination/<wbr></wbr>beauty/love/creation:</b><br />
What
is interesting is that, all the meaning is projected by you, from the
spiritual dimension to the sensory appearances in the world. <br />
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So you could say meaning comes from within. <br />
The source of experience/projection/<wbr></wbr>imagination is within. <br />
The external objects and external meanings are ultimately what you projected on them from within, i.e. the source.</div>
The ultimate source of all creation is you, inside you, intrinsic in your very nature.</div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-31448067584625508602014-11-15T17:44:00.003-08:002014-11-18T16:08:35.908-08:00Contemplative Insight - Nov 15, 2014<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<b>About Drugs:</b><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Drugs dramatically change what is. Upto a 100% obliteration of reality can happen.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Drugs are the dream for someone who is radically averse to 'What is' /<b> OR</b> wanting to completely change 'What is'.</span> Higher the power of the drug(level of reality obliteration), the better.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">A certain threshold of aversion from 'What
is' is required to even consider trying drugs, because drugs radically
change 'What is'.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Drugs progressively affect your different bodies:</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">1. Physical body</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">2. Energy body</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">3. Mental body</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">4. Belief body</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">We
are aversed or attached to 'What is' happening in each of these 4
levels. If you wished a completely new universe at all levels, then
smoke DMT, consume high doses of psychedelics (close to 100% change of
'What is'). If you want to only minimally change the physical and energy
body then take caffeine, alcohol etc. <b><br /></b></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><b><b>About drugs -2:</b><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">With drugs, they create a desire to
seek/recreate/explore that experience. And this is like a desire like
any other - do what it takes to obtain that plane of experience. Then as
tolerance builds, one would try harder and harder to get back there. Its like
giving you the most wonderful thing and then slowly taking it away far
away from you.</span> <br /><br />Fundamental duality:<br />Movement for/against 'What is':</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">In Consciousness, this is the most fundamental duality - For 'What is', 'Against 'What is'.</span></div>
<span style="font-size: small;">Everything can be fundamentally put in these 2 categories.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br />Even emotions can be classified according to movement for or against 'What is':</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>Movement for 'What is' </b>= All attachment emotions = Joy, love, beauty, wonder, power, satisfaction, union, pleasure, happiness</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>Movement against 'What is' </b>= All aversion emotions = Desire, Ambition, Greed, Hatred, Pain, Motivation, Drive, Curiosity</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">It
might be surprising that I clubbed even emotions like Desire, Ambition,
motivation, drive, curiosity into 'Aversion' emotions. But however,
this proves that what we call 'Aversion' is not all bad at all. In fact
its an integral part of the machine of life. Aversion, attachment are
like forward and backward movements in a salsa dance say, that is how
innocuous/harmless they are.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><br />'What is' = Movement of the Impersonal<b> OR </b>God's will.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">'Aversion to What is' = Personal Desire = Potential energy for seeking change of 'What is'</span></div>
<span style="font-size: small;">'Attachment to What is' = Personal Pleasure = Potential energy for continuity of 'What is'</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">The above 2 potential energies is what creates 'Personal life'.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></div>
<span style="font-size: small;">The Personal life is a wave that rides over the Impersonal wave.</span></div>
<span style="font-size: small;">When
the Personal wave merges into the Impersonal wave - it is the
effortless ultimate satisfaction, like a deep sleep experience.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">However,
in this ultimate satisfaction, you will disappear(personal death).
Because 'You' by nature are fundamentally a movement against 'What is'.
'Personal You' is 'That'.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>Great change implies great desire to change what is i.e. Aversion to what is</b>:</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Great
change by definition would imply great aversion to 'What is'. So if you
are experiencing 'Great aversion' to 'What is', you are also
experiencing the potential energy of 'Great change'. It is the same
thing. All the people we venerate and celebrate in the world, the great
changers, have had a great aversion to 'What is', and this is what gave
them energy in their fields. <br /><br /><b>The Enlightened as an extreme aversion to 'What is':</b><br />Only
when utterly nothing is satisfying to you anymore, do you seek the
transcendent (which is what leads to the death of the personal). We call
them the greatest achievers, but they are the ones who had such
overwhelming aversion to 'What is', that this potential energy caused
them to seek and embrace the transcendental, we call them the
'Enlightened', the ultimate achievement. <br /><br />Why would you seek
spiritual dimensions, if you job and family satisfied you enough? Where
is the potential energy to propel that kind of a search? That potential
energy is the energy of 'Aversion', movement against 'What is.<br /><br /><b>Life is by definition, a movement against 'What is':</b></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">This aversion creates potential energy, or
desire to change. When the desire to change is so strong, that you
realize that NONE of the systems in the world, culture, social
interactions, various social games, relationships, sex etc. cannot give
you what you want, that is when you go for the mystical stuff - the
stuff that promises to radically change, <b>anything that promises radical change starts interesting you.</b> Be it, meditation, shamanic trances, drugs, self inquiry, truth seeking, psychedelics etc. <br /><br />Now a person with a attachment of 30% to 'What is' and an aversion of 70% to what is, will be ready to try hard drugs.</span> But a person with attachment 70% and an aversion of 30%, will maybe try only minimal altering drugs, like coffee etc.</span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Great change i.e. great potential for change, is experienced as, great aversion to 'What is'. </span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Aversion to 'What is' is 'Desire'.</span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Personal life is fundamentally 'desire', and desire is movement against 'What is'.</span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Your life, is basically your movement against 'What is'('God's will). </span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Ending of personal desire (which is death
of personal life), is ceasing all movement against 'What is' is
'Personal Death', is the 'Ultimate satisfaction', is you living and in
union with God's will (since your personal will which is like a wave
over God's will has ceased, and therefore there is only the effortless
reality).</span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span><br /></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Aversion is the potential for change.<br />Attachment is the potential for continuity.</span></span>
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">When gigantic changes have to be done, there is great aversion to 'what is'. <br />When there is great attachment to something, we do everything to ensure the continuity of that thing.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Pleasure = Attachment = movement for 'What is'</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Pain = Hatred = Aversion = movement against/away from 'What is'</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Movement 'For' what is, creates</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">When all movement away from 'What is' ceases - that is ultimate satisfaction.</span> You then die into the ocean of God's will, the union, because your movement of separation from it has ceased.<br /><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">'You' are the movement against 'What is'.
When that is gone, you are gone. The price for ultimate satisfaction is
'You', because, you are fundamentally a movement against 'What is'.</span> <br /><br />This
is what part of meditative sadhana and Yoga aims to accomplish. Their
aim is to cease movement away from 'What is' and just BE that. In fact
Yoga means exactly that, 'Union'.<br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Are even emotions like curiosity,
exploration desire, inquisitiveness, ambition, drive, motivation, goals
etc. essentially aversion(movement away from) to 'what is'?</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Is life itself both 1.
pleasure/attachment(movement for) and 2. aversion/resistance(movement
against/away from) to 'What is'? When I see aversion in this light, it
occurs to me, its not negative at all, but simply a charged potential
energy for change. <br /><br />Does it mean the person with the most
aversion to 'What is' experiences the most personal life(which is
inherently a movement away from 'What is')?</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Completely dissolving into 'What is' is personal experience death.</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Attachment to 'What is' is pleasure. It is the potential for continuity and continuation. <br /><br />Now
you may say, we are attached to things that give us pain too. But that
is just colloquial. Actually that attachment is a pleasure of sorts if
you look deeply.</span> Even pain, fear, contraction are seductive.<br /><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Attachment emotions would be everything
that give energy to the quality of 'continuity'. At the pinnacle of
attachment emotions would the most pleasurable experiences - like
extreme love, which everyone wants to stay forever (therefore
continuity).</span><br /><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">The 'desire' (potential energy feeling) to change 'what is' (God's movement) is personal life.</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Its like a smaller wave riding on a bigger wave.</span><br /><b><br />In terms of orienting your life:</b><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">What you REALLY REALLY feel, your deepest desire like doing is God's will.</span> In fact it could be said the greatest desire of all humans is to be one with God.<br /><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">All the other stuff you do, for which you
do not have that level motivation/desire in you is not God's will, but
consumes from a limited reserve of personal will.</span> Ultimately you know, from which place you are acting from, God's will or from your concepts. </span></span></div>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-1148141272460519922014-11-13T13:27:00.001-08:002014-11-18T16:10:30.148-08:00Contemplation on what is the Absolute Truth<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;">I'll start with what I mean by truth. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The Definition (I'm starting with): 'That' which is unchanging.<br /><br /><b>In my experience:</b><br />In
consciousness, there is no 'nothing' at all, in fact there is never
'nothing'. There is always a 'something'. But all of this 'something' is
changing. Which means all of the 'something', has no essence. All of
the 'something' is insubstantial and therefore not really true. In other
words, the only absolute truth is "Nothing is true". The very fact that
I goto sleep in the night and everything disappears implies none of
what disappeared is real. Since everything disappeared, then what
follows is that 'Nothing is un-changingly real'.</span><span style="font: 13px Arial;">But
then, most people in the world believe that some somethings are true
and somethings are not. Does it mean, to get enlightened, they have to
do self inquiry/contemplation/sadhana to reach this state of <Knowing
with absolute certainty that 'Nothing is true'>?</span><span style="font: 13px Arial;">That
means even to say 'Nothing is true' cannot be absolutely true, if we
can get a person to change from experiencing 'Something is true' to
'Nothing is true'. That is like changing from a state A to state B,
which means state B cannot be the ultimate truth. The absolute truth has
to be unchanging, and must be unchangingly true.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Lets say state A = delusion, state B = real truth. <br />Then what is the ultimate truth, that encompasses both these states?</span><span style="font: 13px Arial;">The
confusing part about delusion is that, a delusion is real only until it
is known to be, like a dream is real until it lasts. Once you know,
that say, something is a delusion, then in a sense, you aren't even
deluded anymore. A truly deluded person does not even know he is
deluded, such a knowledge would imply he is not deluded.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">If
reality is a dream, and all dreams are real while they happen, and if
each dream is infinite and there are infinite such dreams happening, in
infinite such creatures (as imagined in my infinite dream in infinite
ways in time), in infinite dimensions (known and unknown, infinite gross
to subtle spectrums), <b>THEN</b> there are infinite realities, and we
are stepping from one infinite to another infinite and we have never
left the infinite as along.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Is
enlightenment the theme of the dream of a person whose dream is about
attaining absolute freedom from everything and absolute
knowledge(experiential) of the nature of existence (not 'his' existence,
because it is impersonal)? Could it be said, that the entire human life
is a game and is ultimately leading to everyone getting enlightened?
And there are people at various levels? Is enlightenment the ultimate
desire of all people? </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">None of the above seem absolutely true. They all are models/thoughts/beliefs again.<b> </b></span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>This means the only thing I can say about the absolute truth is that:</b></span></div>
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Absolute truth is the UNKNOWN, THE MYSTERY. It therefore cannot be known or understood, but only be lived. It is living in the UNKNOWN / MYSTERY. It is, dying to the NOW.</span></div>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-46899155667680400502014-11-11T19:56:00.000-08:002014-11-18T16:12:47.683-08:00Insights - Nov 11<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<b style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;">About desirelessness and egolessness:</b><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Desireless does not mean having no desires. It means detachment/dis-identification from desires. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Egolessness does not mean not having an ego. It means a detachment/dis-identification from the ego manifestation.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">This detachment/dis-identification cannot
be forced, but it is the outcome of deep contemplation/inquiry into the
nature of existence.</span><span style="font: 13px Arial;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>What is God?</b> </span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Other
words for God would be - Infinite nothing, the unknown, transcendent,
the mystery, the ultimate subject, the surprise, the unexpected, and so
on. But all these words are inaccurate concepts/descriptions, because I
cannot reduce the transcendent to one word or a concept. The
transcendent contains all of the contradictions too within it. Like it
is both nothing and something at the same time. Its similar to the
riddle of: Everything is presence, because there is presence of presence
and presence of absence OR the riddle of: Everything is consciousness.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"></span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">God is EVERYTHING. Everything does not
come from nothingness and return to nothingness. That would be
inaccurate to say. A more accurate way to state would be, 'The
nothingness that's free of time/space appears as a something (inc. time
and space) and keeps eternally dancing/changing form. Change is part of
its essence itself. The nothing therefore permeates all of the
something. Everything is made up of the substance of this 'nothing' or
'God'.'</span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"></span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>A mini analogy for this would be: </b></span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Its like a alien who, say, has the ability
to shape shift itself to any form and behavior. The alien suddenly
appears to you like your mother, father, sister, daughter, brother,
friend, companion, lover, a bird, an animal, anything, since the alien
can shape shift into anything. In this case, the alien is truly none of
the shapes or behavior you saw, the alien has infinite possibility of
transforming itself into anything. God is something like that.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>Enlightenment as an attained state is the ultimate illusion:</b> </span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Enlightenment is the ultimate illusion. Everything is a dream, all equally infinite and beautiful. There is no way to absolutely win. Actions change the dream, but the dreams and unique and incomparable anyways. Its like a river where you never step in the same river twice, the journey from the unexpected to the unexpected, surprise to the surprise. All of experience is unrepeatable and therefore an ecstasy. Everything is absurd. We are stepping from the absurd to the absurd, strangeness to strangeness. I am too happy and involved in what's there NOW and the surprises held at every moment, to care about the future. When there is no fear, the future is irrelevant. We think about the future because of fear or because of hope for a better moment than the present. What if this is best possible moment u can have and what if every moment is that way? Why would you ever care about the future instead of losing yourself NOW? Life is the mystical experience. This is exactly what anyone ever wants in the broad picture. This is perfection, and nothing has ever left the perfect.</span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-50184955413216609122014-11-10T17:42:00.002-08:002014-11-18T16:14:41.489-08:00Insights - Nov 10<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<b>About desire:</b></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Desireless does not mean having no desires. It means detachment to desires. </span><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"> </span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Attachment to desires, is the actual cause of suffering.</span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Desires are also an appearance and therefore not true.</span> </div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Everything I say is a lie (not absolutely true): </b></span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">When I know everything I say is a lie, it makes me feel so weak. I cannot say anything true.</span>
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Once you see impermanence, this too
shall pass, everything gets fearful and shaky. Where can you stand, when
you know everything is appearing/disappearing. I cannot grasp on to any
appearance.</span>
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Anything I say, or act, I feel like a phony, a pretender, a fake, a falsity, a mask. It makes me really queasy.</span>
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Pretending well enough to be a genuine fake is a torture.</span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">I'm afraid of anything I notice, because if I notice something, it is going to pass away. So my attention is hiding out in fear.</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Knowledge of impermanence = can create depression, until the other beliefs are removed.</span>
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<br /></div>
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<b><b><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Dis-identification vs changing/suppressing/altering anything:</span></b> </b></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Dis-identification from the ego is what is needed. The ego still remains but you are no longer identified with it.</span>
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Your identification is with awareness itself. The ego then is an appearance within awareness.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<b><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><b>Riding the IRON OX of nothingness:</b></span></b></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">More than 'Do god's will' it is more accurate to say 'BE god's will'.</span></span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"> </span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">I am simply an instrument that manifests God's will. In fact, the existence of me itself is God's will.</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">By god here, I am referring to the
infinite nothing, from which everything is projected as appearances and
from which all appearances are pulled back in. What is the nature of
this infinite/transcendent nothing? - It is the unknown, the unexpected,
the absolutely unimaginable, beyond any possible manifestation. </span></span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">It
is impossible for the intellect to understand God, because the
intellect itself is the 'infinite nothing's' creation. How can a
creation understand its creator? Its similar to, say, you creating a
computer, and programming a software into it such that it uses all
possible algorithms to think about its creator. Now the computer is
limited to what you programmed it with right, those are its only
resources. It cannot come up with anything apart from the complexity of
the algorithms you put into it. But would any of its calculations,
describe anything about you? Aren't you forever unknowable to the
computer? That's how the dilemma is when we are using the mind to
understand the transcendent. The transcendent is un-understandable.</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span> </span></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Tracing the source of perceptions back to its source, <span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">the
infinite nothing (God), is what is meant by manifesting God's will. In
the sense, the main difference between your normal egoic manifestation
and god's manifestation is that ego manifests from a limited conception
and is limited to whatever conception is there (like how a computer is
limited by the program you put into it), God's will manifests from the
infinite.</span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"></span><br />
<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">If nothing is true, and everything is
an appearance, then EVERYTHING can be taken away from you. There is
absolutely nothing you can stand on. When this is seen in its entirety,
then the place you are looking from is the nothingness, infinite
nothing. From that point of view, you have true freedom. True gratitude
(or true fear if there is some belief, identification) is felt when you
take absolutely nothing for granted. </span></span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Greater
the dis-identification = greater the freedom. Everything is given by
God, and can be as easily taken away from you too. The infinite void or
nothing, that is where, you pull out all the unlimited riches. As the
christians say 'The kingdom of heaven' is within. The light is projected
from the infinite nothing, creating you, creating your world (I mean
literally creates your world, because your world is nothing but an
experience, just like how the entire world can be created in your dream
just using psychic stuff). </span></span></div>
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<span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"><span style="-moz-font-feature-settings: normal; -moz-font-language-override: normal; font-family: Arial; font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;">Who
projects this light? - The infinite nothing. You are a dream of the
infinite nothing. All your thoughts, powers, will, actions, words,
behaviors, relationships, perceptions, beliefs, EVERYTHING, are from the
infinite nothing. All that there is to do, is to relax with 'What is'
and gradually completely be in union with 'What is'. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Seratonin is like getting back to safety. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Its like being inside your home on a stormy cold night.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">When you don't have much of it, its like standing outside in the open on a dark stormy cold night.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">It vastly buffers all the stressors of life. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Another analogy would be seratonin is like a car engine oil. All the engine movements are smooth when there is oil, life is smooth.</span><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">But once the oil runs out/or is chronically low, the gears and mechanisms start grating on each other and wearing each other out mutually.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Seratonin is what protects you from life's stresses.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Seratonin is also will power, or the unifying energy of consciousness.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Without seratonin, in freud's language, the ID imposes its demands hard on the ego and the ego is greatly stressed.</span><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"> Its like having a very weak parent and a angry child making crazy demands and stressing the parent vs. a strong parent who can easily communicate with the child and have a nice relationship.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Not having enough seratonin is like not having skin on your body. Imagine how much all the elements of nature will affect you if you did not have skin. You get overwhelmed and retreat very soon and struggle to survive and fulfill expectations. </span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-57771664678597536162014-11-09T17:46:00.001-08:002014-11-18T20:25:30.165-08:00Insights - Nov 9 trip<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">I'm searching and seeking something/self,
that is unfindable which explains why I never find it, and try harder
and harder in more novel ways to find it. When I have run out of all
options, ways, models, concepts, ideologies etc. are unsatisfactory, I
give up and get depressed. </span>The depression that I feel now, is
directly proportional to how many things I had hoped in and how many
things failed on me, which is everything. So there is a deep discontent
and longing.<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">But what if it is basically unfindable? which explains why the struggle is infinite?</span>
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">My world and mapping of emotions
are all about satisfying expectations. I don't know who I am apart from
borrowed expectations from parents/culture etc. So not
meeting/satisfying/denying expectations is death, because there is
nothing else to rely on.</span> I really don't know what I am apart from
those mosaic of influences which I hold on to, as Deepak, and fear
stepping out of it, with the fear of death. But I also know that there
is something phony about it, which makes me get very aggressive about
finding the truth and reading EVERY POSSIBLE material on it.<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Emptiness, Emptiness when the other person
has no expectations or is also similarly disconnected from meaning, I
get the fear of death.</span>
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<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">How can I cure this fundamental
disconnection? Because I am disconnected, I do not have the energy
source from inside me for most things. I work on software mode in the
world just fulfilling expectations and taking and watching temporary
selves and desires pass by. Its like the fundamental doubt and
disconnection has somehow lingered, and total identification with the
parent has not happened in my case, resulting in continuous awareness of
non-genuineness and pretense and, acting/pretending from there, as a
make shift arrangement out of a fear of losing the rewards given by the
pretense. Isn't everyone pretending anyway? is another lingering
doubt. Which is why there is a lingering doubt about the authenticity of
others too, and there is a constant resentment that you need to fulfill
their expectations. At the same time the expectations are magnetic, I
cannot leave them, because that would mean death, I know nothing else
apart from them. The expectations take my time and energy away from what
I truly want to do, i.e. find my true self. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"></span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">I constantly resent them for they
unnecessarily take time away from finding my self. But now, I see there
is no self apart from expectations, in the way I have built it. The
entire facade is a make shift arrangement I have built like clothes over
my true self. I accumulated all the possible spiritual knowledge in my
quest to find my true self, but more and more I realize that no object,
accumulation can be it. It is just 'Not anything'. The pain is of seeing
that no matter what scriptures, intellectual models, belief systems and
explorations I do, the depression is of not finding the true self in
anything. Well, that is because, there is no true self, and I can see it
now.</span>
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Now, I see the ultimate truth was just at my doorstep, the truth that I am the unmanifest or beyond.</div>
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All
my desires collapsed into this one quest for the truth, I lost every
possible material and intellectual desire or at least they got greatly
diffused. I channeled all of my energy into finding this truth.
Everything else appeared pointless and a pretense. I just could not
stand pretending anymore. So I was dropping all my worldly interests
like flies.<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The final seeking
launches a more intense rebellion, rejecting everything - society,
relationships, expectations and tries to minimize them as much as
possible to find this unfindable self. I almost entirely withdrew all of
its projections from the world to search for this invisible thing.
There is an in-between despair and depression of knowing all of the
false and not seeing the true at all anywhere. A Limbo. A great sadness.
I call it the Dark night. <br /><br />But why not flip it around and feel
the joy of being nothing, no thing, not limited to anything, just the
unspeakable fabric of reality, which is everything in this moment and
all that have ever been, its all me. I am everything and BEYOND. I am
the Unmanifest, the infinite potential, that moves/changes everything
(thru infinite movies and characters). </span>
<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">All my desires are not mine. They
are just picked up from my parents and society. My true nature does not
contain anything. These internalized desires from culture, my parents,
and socialization are held on to, by me, as self, but in reality, its
just my ignorance. I am thinking they are me, when in reality I am NONE
OF THAT. I also hold on to them out of guilt and obligation, belief that
I need to identify myself with something and fear of not doing so I
guess. This has just been passing on from generation to generation in my
family and now its my riddle to solve. I am the transcendent itself and
all manifestation is in my awareness and from that space everything
comes and goes.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The subtler
dimension - the intellect - its doubts and beliefs, drive the emotions
profoundly in the grosser realities (physical), So when a belief,
puzzle, riddle, question is answered or solved, an entire investment,
seeking drops away. Its a great release, a huge freedom.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Now
I have understood. Its all now, all the energies in motion. I have to
feel this NOW space of energy entirely and optimize it for a wonderful
life as per the desire energies found there. All that has to be done, is
relax into the NOW, BE it, and let the movie PERFECT ITSELF in the
revelation.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>I met some beautiful people in my path </b>-
Natalie, Ninad, Roshan. Beautiful in the sense, they are all
surprisingly close to god(ultimate reality). All of them have a deeper
than usual doubt taking them far deeper than usual. Externally,
superficially, they are extremely different, but in terms of closeness
to the ultimate, abstractly, they are just around the corner with me.</span>
Ninad ruthlessly challenged all my concepts, Natalie helped me grow
emotionally, Roshan helped me by being a companion and challenging some
of my fears. I am grateful for all that they have given me.</div>
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;"><b>Broad insights:</b><br />Desires are
insubstantial, empty, non essence. They are all appearances. There is
only movement. Nothing static. So there is really no goal to reach,
nothing to attain. Life is like music. Life is the unexpected/the most
unlikely thing. I am constantly dissatisfied that life does not follow
my imagination, but that is the very nature of it and its probably the
best thing.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;"></span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Living on the razor's edge of the
unexpected NOW is true life. The razor's edge is complete receptivity in
emptiness and being that effortless energy movement because it is in
tune with the universal, personal effort disappears.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The
neurotransmitters are feelings. The feeling of satiety, satisfaction,
not feeling like moving, contentment, peace, relaxation, non-desire to
change anything, no thoughts, still, present = SERATONIN.</span><span style="font: 13px Arial;">
Its possible to put attention on one particular sensation and let that
enlarge based on the power of concentration. All power is
'concentration', concentration/attention is what channels manifestation.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">All
feelings exist in different proportions like a dance. This is in the
sensations dimension. There is also the mental dimension which is a
different kind of subtle feelings of meaning and potentials.</span>
Ultimately there is just 'Experience'.<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The
best way to check how much in tune you are with 'What is' is to see how
much movement you have away from 'What is'. More the movement away from
it = More the suffering. </span><br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">I
am trying to find the best possible imaginable life, using the powers
of intellect, understanding. But this can never hold true because the
movement of life is always to the UNEXPECTED. the EXPECTED is DEAD. In
fact my thinking, my understandings, my insights etc. are itself done by
life. The insights are life's children, not the other way. The ultimate
reality is forever unknowable and Beyond, it can only be lived moment
to moment and I AM THAT.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The
desire to shift reality 100% out of what it is, IS the suffering. That
is a total dislike for 'What is'. Why should I desire to change 100% of
what is?<b> Why not change the relationship to 'What is' to equanimity </b>instead?
OR Just BEING?. The idea is 'Stay with life' as it is, as 'What is' and
anchor there as an ultimate guide. Just BE 'That' and let the 'That' do
you.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">There is the
thinking process(Yang) and the breaks on thinking(Yin). There is
awakeness and breaks on awakeness. Its just an endless dance. See what
is, and optimize the dance perfectly. That is what I truly seek....not
any specific state, its all NOW.</span> Any movement away from NOW is living in the illusion that there is something to find apart from 'What is there NOW'.<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">If you work just for others Expectations, as the goal, then after the goal is done, you are left with emptiness again.</span>
That is the condition of being disconnected from the source energy and
its potentials manifested(desires). Whereas if you are connected to the
source, you keep setting goals and moving endlessly without being
dependent on any EXTERNAL AUTHORITY.<br />
<br />
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">You are in contact with all the energies at this moment. You are whole. </span>
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">What we are seeking is where we are seeking from - the infinite.</span>
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">THIS IS IT, just an unfolding of energy NOW, if you do it right, is the best place to be.</span></div>
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<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">The feeling 'I do not like what is there' is so persistent in all the appearances. I keep dreaming of finding that experience/thing that would atleast temporarily give me the feeling of 'Yess! this is exactly what I want'. Then once I get that, I would try to seek it permanently. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">But I can see the traps here. Life keeps conveying it to me again and again, that reality and what I imagine are forever different. Imagination is part of an ever changing reality. Reality is moving from uniqueness to uniqueness. If it were to exactly follow my imagination, that would actually be boring.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">Life in essence is the unexpected. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">The expected is dead. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">Change is life. </span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">Non-repetition is life. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px 'Lucida Grande';">It seems like it is possible to truly live only when we truly die. Just like at a smaller level, only when we have seen the depths of sadness can we apprehend the depths of joy. </span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-42640728727960720602014-10-22T00:18:00.000-07:002014-10-22T00:18:24.205-07:00Child with a Toy Steering Wheel Analogy of Life<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">I seem to
frequently encounter a situation where there is enormous resistance,
unwillingness, aversion, repulsion, disgust but yet a force keeps
pushing me hard towards that very object. Its as if my struggling
against movement towards the object makes no difference. Like a wind
pushing me irrespective of my struggle against it. <br /><br />Like a child
trying hard with his toy steering wheel to not go to a place, but the
adult nevertheless steers the car there. Then the child is very <b>fearful,</b>
that he might never leave this uncomfortable place, then mysteriously
the adult drives away and relieves the child of this horrible experience
only for it to repeat again after sometime. <br /><br />Is it something to
do with control? Do we really have no control? If that is the case, then
how is the illusion of control so pervasive everywhere? Do people not
see the absence of control OR Are they completely deceived in some way?
How did I skip getting deceived like that? Am the the only one seeing
this form of reality?</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Its like the game between dark matter and
gravity. One expands and one contracts, yet they exist in a play and
sometimes one is stronger, sometimes the other is. <br /><br />Sometimes,
there is an attractive object that I pass by, like a child with his toy
steering wheel in a real car passes by. The adult keeps going and does
not stop, so the sight becomes a <b>fleeting pleasure</b> and also causes <b>high desire</b> but its unfulfilled when the adult drives away and it therefore causes <b>pain</b>.<br /><br />Sometimes there is a repulsive object that the child spots but the adult continues to drive straight, so that again becomes a <b>fleeting negative experience</b>
for the child. At times, the car goes to a repulsive object (for the
child) and stops the car close to it. This causes the child to get<b> depressed </b>because
the toy steering wheel is seen to be useless and he cannot get out of
there no matter how hard he tries. At other times, the car stops in
front of an attractive object, so there is <b>constant pleasure</b> in the child's experience. Now again when the adult takes off, the joy fades away and there is <b>sadness/pain of loss</b>. At times, the adult gives the child the <b>illusion of control</b>,
he steers the car perfectly contingent to the child's toy wheel
movements which convinces the child that he is driving the car.</span></div>
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">In this analogy, the WIND force or the Adult here is God, the Universal, brahman, ultimate reality.</span></div>
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The
child is the self/ego/identity which believes he/she is controlling
destiny or that his/her desires are really real/concrete/unchanging/<wbr></wbr>solid/substantial/having
essence. But the reality of it is that, the adult can very easily
change the whole relationship and completely dispel this illusion.</span></div>
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">Even
if I do not have control even ONCE or a SINGLE MOMENT in my life, it
proves to me that control is only an APPEARANCE. Because if it was not
an appearance, firstly, you would possess control all the time and
non-control is impossible. Absolute truth cannot FAIL even once. Even 1
failure indicates, your model is wrong and you need to re-examine.
Secondly, by the law of duality, Control even exists in experience
because at sometime in your life, you have had the experience of
non-control.</span></div>
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">So
technically if I extrapolate, all of perception has to be an APPEARANCE,
because I can only perceive something if I experienced its opposite
which means, the 'Thing/Object' I perceived has to be an
insubstantial/Unreal Appearance. </span></div>
<span style="font: 13px Arial;">The
only real will, is the DIVINE will, we having willpower/control is an
illusion/one of the possibilities of the divine will itself. There is no
Doer in the conventional sense. The only Doer is the Divine itself
(which cannot even be made or spoken of as an object).</span></div>
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Everything is changing and the in-substantiality of everything is what makes it akin to a dream, just like a dream at night is. I seemed to have transcended emotions and thinking, and I can realize that I am trying to hold on to life in my mind by thinking, verbalizing, but its all dead in a way. The alive is the moving/changing dimension. I'm recording the words, but the music has already left. Only bare words are left thereafter. Me holding on to the dead, is why I am getting depressed from deadness. I am controlling myself in pursuit of some ideal image I have been building up in my mental space. But no mental image is me, I am simply restricting myself to my mental image and believing that is the true me. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Even emotions cannot be captured by words. Induction of emotions is possible but it involves a movement away from whats happening effortlessly. Even your ability to induce emotions may or may not be there at different times. And even if I do try to induce emotions and if I'm not particularly like the emotions that are capturing me at the moment, even that can be transcended and seen through. Everything is me, the effortless dream happens on transcending all contents and the resultant understanding from that. Even my efforts and reasons for capturing everything in words is seen through. The 'seeing' takes a quantum leap and reaches all-encompassing levels. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Why should I try to attain anything, if I am what's here and if I am also my attainments? I am all my potentials. The current reality is as good as a potential as any other. There is no reason to attain any other state, because all states are me. I have never left myself anywhere. I am always myself like how I am always dreaming in a lucid dream no matter whats happening in the dream or who I am in the dream. I do not have to be anything else to find myself. I am already here. Everything might be as it is, or might not, I might life with the same pattern, conditioning, with all processes untouched, but with a peace that passes my understanding. There is really nothing to say, to get this across directly. I can come up with something like 'I am THAT all encompassing reality'. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The world is a dream inside me. There is also an appearance of a shared world with the appearance of other characters similar to me. There is infinity in my relationships to these people and my relationship to the direct physical world itself. Also my own imagination. I am not in the world, the world is inside me. This is the part where it gets beyond conventional logic. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">If the world is inside me, even its rules are part of my dream. I'm playing a character of defiance and rebellion against the world presented. But I am that rebellion too. I am the world and its rules too. I am all of the people in the world. No matter what I choose, or become in this world, I will still be me, I would never have left myself. Why should I be afraid of my own potentials and stay in a depression because of that? </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">I am able to see how a fear is quickly holding me in, as my imagination tries to open up any possibility. I can see how my attachments are holding me back from exploring any different dimensions and possibilities. I can see how my need for control, security is clamping on me and preventing me from even feeling much. But no matter what, from the transcendent seeing dimension, all is ME, all is perfect, all is UNION, I am all of THAT. This UNION is beyond even choosing to choose. Choice happens inside of ME. I am not 'choice'. Everything happens inside of me. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Its exactly like a lucid dream, but in a lucid dream, I realize I am 'my waking identity'. But in this lucid life I could call it, your identity is simply transcendent/beyond everything/everything is only one of your potentials among infinite. I could say 'The born and Infinite unborn potential' OR just say 'Beyond'. </span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-3056783789197073712014-10-08T10:39:00.001-07:002014-10-18T23:21:25.927-07:00Letting go<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">I need to give attention to a thing to let go of a thing. The way to let go of something is to fully accept it. The paradox is that: Complete acceptance is a necessary condition for change. You cannot let go of something, by not giving it attention - then that becomes dissociation, avoidance, suppression and anyways, whatever you do not let go of stays/remains with you continuously.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">There is letting go of a thing</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">There is letting of 'letting go of a thing' and 'not letting go of a thing'</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">There is letting of (letting go) or (not letting go) the practice of letting of itself.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">There is letting go of the frustration due to the inability to let go of the practice of not letting go.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">There is letting go of both control and non-control</span></span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">I am so drawn to the understandings, learnings, insights of the spiritual, metaphysical, at the heights of the mind's capability to understand. I have also had tremendous success with this, i.e. exploring the meta-meta-meta^n levels of things. But then I cannot seem to hold on and be anything. If I do, then I distinctly feel like I am resisting against where the natural current is taking me. As my interests naturally arise and pass, my abilities, knowledge, understandings also arise and pass. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Everything can be lost and similarly everything can be gained. Everything fades. and is replaced with a new creation. Destruction is needed for creation to happen. Destruction of the 'Void', is needed for 'Something' to be created. Its my constant holding on to those insights, that is creating resistance against the natural flow. I am holding on to my creation and thereby resisting change.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Its as if everything moves, the energy and interest behind things keep shifting, but mentally since my belief is that I must do those things, I keep doing things even though they give me no satisfaction because they are dead in a way (dead like memories, thoughts, beliefs..other accumulations). Even the grandest of things arise and pass away. The worst chaotic experiences too arise and pass away. It is not possible to hold on to anything in the 5-D screen of consciousness because doing so is resistance of the universal movement of change, the dance of life. More the resistance = more the suffering. Its as if life is like the wind that moves, anything I do against the wind is resistance. </span> </span></span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">As days pass by, the more I realize my true essence is nothing. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Its not just hatred, guilt, fear, pain that is to be surrendered to god/ocean of void/infinite, but it is everything including the positive ones like love, joy, bliss, wellbeing, pleasure. Letting go has to be experiential at every moment, every perceivable vibration is to be let go of. Even my mental models are to be let go of at every moment. Every insight, every thought, every mental image, every sensation is to be let go of. Simply abide in complete relaxation.</span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-26650586136798297632014-10-06T13:53:00.002-07:002014-11-18T20:33:58.653-08:00My writing as passing music with words<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">My writing is the expression of the music of my thought. Once the music has passed, I only have the words but not the music that created the words. This is true even with memories. Sometimes I remember the images, but not the full feelings associated. Someone reading this material, who has searched for this, will get the music from my words.</span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-40501530476782718792014-10-04T19:05:00.001-07:002014-10-04T19:21:36.499-07:00Analogy: Distance Blindness for far away objects<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Distance blindness is that depth perception is lost for far away objects. For example when you are on a train, the mountain and the sky look like they are on the same plane, but in reality the sky is much farther away. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">If we take stars, for a person on the ground, both alpha centauri and sirius both look like dots and in the same plane in their vision. But once you move to get to alpha centauri, then you realize how far away sirius is, again sirius looks like a dot from there. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">This is how I feel we evolve through life. As a child we dream of buying a room full of toys, but later that imagination itself evolves. What is a dot at a distance is attained, and again everything else looks like a far away dot from that point of view. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">This is what I feel when my friend wants to move from LSD to DMT. In my imagination they both are the same. But since he has seen LSD, now DMT has become the dot at a distance. Since I've done neither, both of them look like star dots from my point of view.</span></div>
FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-79212998612404940052014-10-04T18:56:00.001-07:002014-10-05T09:15:17.120-07:00Transformation from projective illusions, external world game, meaning<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">All the projections potentials are already there in our hands. The external world is just a symbolic forms on which we project. But the external world is entirely empty without our projections.We imbue all the symbols with magic. In fact even symbolism is my creation. Everything is my creation. Nothing exists apart from my projections.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The symbols are constantly changing but our projections are the same. In my quest to find a worthy object for my projections, I have discovered all objects are unworthy. Its only the illusion that is going to end because once I see there is nowhere to go, no real purpose, nothing to attain, then I transcend those beliefs which have tried very hard to find validation. Now, the desert will transform itself to projective freedom with the knowing that I am THAT.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The external world, earth is a particular video/experience game of consciousness. What is solid about a think which appears only when I look at it? If I close my eyes its gone. So is it that, I only experience what I want to experience? If the physical objects contain nothing inherently but just a slate for laying out my own projections, then 100% of experience is within me and only projected to external forms.</span>
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;"><span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Synthesis of imagination is what converts the chaotic pattern on the screen into meaning. Creating meaning is about exuding your inner projections on objects. Meaning does not reside in external objects. No object has any meaning. We impart meaning to objects. Exactly like how random swirling colors become a moving fractal with elements showing the principles of art - harmony, variety, movement, balance, proportion, pattern. These qualities run in spectrums too and life moves the spectrum analyzer of even these qualities.</span><br />
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-8879070957523445442014-10-04T18:53:00.000-07:002014-10-18T23:42:17.389-07:00Thoughts - Absolute truth, 100% change as 0 essence, external reality, control<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">We work with the representations most of the time and not the actual thing.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Let go of being open and let go of being closed.</span><br />
<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">We are trying to study and quantify an ever changing universe. But this attempt/paradigm to quantify itself is one among infinite paradigms.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The absolute truth is nothingness/nothing. So the potential in absolute terms is infinite. If there is no absolute truth, then everything we are witnessing is only a play among infinite possibilities. Even my capacity for understanding and its potential is part of the play. So it is impossible to understand the absolute truth or get there using thought or a particular questioning method. There are no answers, because an answer implies there is a question. The absolute truth is infinite and therefore nothing. All the things are only appearances in the absolute truth. Every experience is real as an appearance but absolutely its one among infinite potentials. So thats where you can let go of all appearances. There is only direct experience. Everything else is a holding on of some sort. The question of what should you do? You can do anything, it makes no difference ultimately. Absolutely there is no time and space even. So all this is a play/game and no thing is THE THING. The real thing is No-thing and it is not even a thing. A thing is an appearance inside it. That it, is not even an object. It just is and has no qualities since qualities appear as a form of it. To speak about it in language, I have to use the word 'it', but actually it is beyond/transcendent of everything and is the substance of everything that appears to me now.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The physical world can be studied forever, but its only one of the possibilities of the infinite. What difference does it make, whether I study the physical world or my mental imagination potentials. They are basically the same thing, a particular kind of movie.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">There is a truth that is imposed on me called the external world which is basically expectations - body, social, physical laws. Not able to consistently meet expectations or exceed, results in anxiety, fear of punishment, further denial, getting indebted, getting attacked, marginalized, ostracized. Creates fear of survival. But what has to survive? This Frame? This mind? This state? This experience flavor? What difference does it make if the absolute truth is nothingness.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The only thing that needs to be observed is a 100% change. If an object changes from state A to state B, 100%, and if this change is observed, then irrespective of how often this magnitude of change occurs in time, the object has already proved that its essence is nothing. 100% change = proves 0 essence. What is essential does not change. What is essential/essence by definition = unchanging. If nothing is unchanging and if everything is changing whether now, later or when in time does not matter. If memory is strong enough and expansive enough to witness a 100% change in all of awareness, then the non-essence of all content is instantly proved. The 'find out: who are you?' question is meant to take you to the realization of non-essence, which happens when observation refines itself enough and sees clearly that 100% of change can happen. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The external world is an appearance in consciousness and not a true reality because: Ask the question, where is the external reality appearing - Ans: In the screen of consciousness. If I close my eyes, the external reality disappears immediately from input. Which means, in the screen of consciousness, the external reality has disappeared. If I open my eyes again, again it appears. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">External reality itself in fact is a concept in the mind based on sense memory and conceptualization. Even that is an appearance in the screen of consciousness which can disappear as easily when you do the exercise of imagining green color filling your mind space where you see nothing but green in your mind's eye. When you do this exercise, if you do it properly and completely, during the seconds you filled green color into your mind's eye, even the concept of external reality disappeared.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">A persistent appearance (external reality) does not imply its real. Its still only an appearance as einstein said "Reality is an illusion, a persistent illusion".</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">The best analogy would be, to think the external reality is real, is like saying, a character that appears on the movie screen is real. Only the screen is real, not its contents. So maybe our real nature is like a dreaming organism, which can create this dream that we are in right now. In which case, you are not really looking at plastic, metal, another human being, a plant, a life-form, a rock and so forth. What you are REALLY looking at is particular forms of consciousness/knowing.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Control at the base level is about controlling experience. Not controlling other people, not controlling animals, machines and so forth. Real control is control of experience. This is because controlling people is also control of a certain part of experience but it is paltry in front of real control of all of experience itself. People who control other people are like blind men. They cannot see their own projections is what are controlling them, when the more intelligent thing they could do is control their projections directly instead. It is extremely inefficient to control other people. It just makes life unnecessarily harder.</span>
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FreeThinkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12738331594869141269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1023245139627680952.post-9198788717908814652014-10-04T18:27:00.002-07:002014-10-05T10:23:22.471-07:00About Enlightenment<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Enlightenment is not ecstasy. It is not knowing everything there is to know. It is not becoming a world leader. It is not becoming a savior of 1000s of people. Neither is it service to anyone or any group. Externally there is literally no difference between an enlightened person and non-enlightened. The one who knows himself is enlightened, the one who does not is not. Its like a marigold that knows its a marigold is enlightened. A marigold which thinks its a rose is not.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Enlightenment is the satisfaction of the ultimate deepest knowing. Experiences come and go, but the understanding stays. Sometimes the understanding leaves, but then there is another understanding that stays behind it. This happens all the way until emptiness.</span>
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">Fear is only of the possibilities you have already seen. Fear is only of the known. It is for a repeating of a possibility in your memory and proportional to how long it lasts. Fear arises when the input interpretation predicts/expects an unpleasant possibility. </span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">When all that the input interpretation engine comes up with is outputting unpleasant, scary, horrible possibilities - that leads straight to depression.</span><br />
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<span style="font: 13.0px Arial;">But if nature is infinity possibility, there must be a way to move out of the hell realms into one of the earth or heaven realms. My fear is mainly getting stuck in some possibility. Now why do I get stuck? Because the possibility manifests with no energy/will/freedom to get out of it. Its like putting a dog in a cage, it cannot free itself by itself. </span>
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