Gravity, Law of attraction - expansion and contraction

If entropy is continuously increasing - if this is a basic law - then functions such as holding on to memory, habits, beliefs would use up much more energy - like dough is a much more ordered form but so much of heat energy is required to make it.

Maybe law of gravity is law of attraction. Gravity is the reason solids exist bringing together particles. Gravity may be creating weight. Gravity may be creating personality.

Consciousness is space where everything exists in it. Realizing this and giving up ones ego for unlimited vast space is like collapsing gravity of personality. Now this is a confusing part. If the personality is collapsed, why would have any attractive force powers? Wouldn't that make you a pure nobody? But surprisingly a lot of people of this sort have reported to be very attractive to everyone around. Maybe this collapse has a duality in it. They are either nobody or they become an incredible attractive force.

Maybe even emotions like love and inclusion feel like expansion while fear, repression is a contracting emotion. Is our natural nature to simply be in tune with the most basic law of the universe to expand forever. So holding on to anything is consuming lot of energy. At the most basic level we hold on to our personality with all its beliefs. Maybe holding on to this sense of I is a contraction. Are we overcoming this by acquiring more and more material possessions and emotional ties with other people? Maybe this explains our social desire. Our need for increasing learning. We want to continually keep expanding in everything. Romantic interest allows us to do this at a much more intimate level.

Does this also explain why our evolution is pushing us to connect with everyone else? For example the internet for sharing experiences and knowledge in the best way we know until now - media channels.

What is music in that case? Isn't it a manifestation of order? Isn't beauty a combination of unity - harmony and variety - diversity, Also how does it satisfy layers of order and disorder in reality?

Love as a trophy vs love like air

Imagine you’re really attracted to someone and have all kinds of experiences with them, the implicit agreement is that you would store the memories with me in a special place in your mind and cherish them like trophies. If you are always in the present moment, there is no trophy, you are not in this game anymore, your love is everywhere like air and there are no special places or preferences, there is no selection. This goes against typical romantic love and pursuits where there is a very distinct selection.

A non-selective choice less awareness is like air, everywhere uniformly present while our conventional love definition is more like a solid object we treasure like a trophy. So a person in this state does not have a personality as an object, it’s like air or water, infinitely modifiable, not even like clay which has some limitations. So in the personality dimension when all the solids are trying to find a way to fit into each other, the air just fits in anywhere and resides in a large space.

Non-duality, attachment, euphorigens

No experience is me. No experience is needed for me to be complete. I would be complete and in absolute bliss in a non-experience state. It is the deepest rest and the profoundest peace possible. Craving for a certain experience is like getting a taste of a sweet when you’re extremely hungry and the craving is to completely indulge yourself in it. Certain thoughts are super potent. They create a brief taste of the euphorigens and then the craving starts for the same. This also gives me more empathy towards drug addicts. When your stomach is fully satisfied, you wouldn't feel like eating the sweet. But in this case, the craving for experience (variety, intensity, harmony, beauty, purity etc.) is a hunger that one has to understand more deeply.

The euphoric state feels excellent but it is continuously present for too long then it becomes a baseline and loses significance, also since there is nothing to compare it against.

There are many ways to control this. I think there is a very deep inherent unfulfillment that persists no matter what experience is triggered. This can be observed by mindfulness. Mindfullness is totally needed for satisfaction of any sort because, what is the use of being happy if you do not know you are!

Eating a perfectly sattvic diet will reduce the number of euphorigens and therefore all cravings. With this the pure mindfulness quality can be stronger. Yogic asanas and pranayama can also similarly reduce cravings quite a lot.

I am simply attached and drawn to certain mental states of mind. It happens in the mental plane. I am different from others because of the mental states I am attached to. Compared to an ordinary person, my mental life is richer by a factor of atleast 100. Even physical objects are ultimate a spiraling of thought on matter. So in a way, everything is mental and your life is absolutely rich, if your conditioning is almost nil the whole mental space is your oyster for play. Beyond this freedom is the ultimate freedom of realizing your self which is the ultimate observer, a plane even above the mental space. That would be freedom from all action and change.

I am attached to certain perspectives, thoughts and ways of seeing things since on examination they give the best combination of freedom and reward. Is there really a higher and lower perspective? Each perspective is an optimizing equation. But what is the equation optimizing? What is the sample space of this optimization? I guess that would be the entire mental continuum. So we are basically selecting some experiences over others. What if we just rise off the entire mental continuum like stepping out of the dimension, allow our brightness to shine completely and then look at all experience as equal and simply as members of the mental dimension?

The transition would be like, if you visited another planet and stayed there alone long enough with aliens then all humans would look alike to you. This would be in stark contrast to the distinctions we make on earth such as good, bad, ugly, beautiful, man, woman etc. So does moving to the non-dual state essentially mean stepping out of the entire experience continuum? Is this what they call emptiness or nothingness!

Contemplation on why society exists

It seems like all minds are the same and each mind contains the whole of all experience. Just that each is in a different configuration optimizing certain variables. Each mind is a subjective bubble and isolated at least as of my perception. Different minds manifest different amounts in this physical plane. What is a doctor, engineer etc. without any social context? It is a specialization in a particular thought form. Society mostly favors specialization and works on 'mutual trust' that others are doing their specializations respectively. The trust factor is so important here.

Why is the current system not agreeable? economic inequality, concentration of power with the elite, exploitation of the working class, corporations manipulation, work slavery, rigidity, suppression, social manners, conventions, excessive consumerism at the cost of the planet, myopic compulsive thinking to just reach target after target, encouragement of addictive forms such as work holism,  etc. Society is the synthetic collective mind entity and the fact that it is running shows that people are actually happy with it. Awareness and beliefs are the main factors here. What will you do if you totally believed that the government was god's order? What if each human being was made completely aware of everything? How would the world be? Is this deliberately part of the design so that these cycles can go on? Human emotion expressing themselves as opposing forces? Why does delusion even exist? Maybe that is also part of the duality game, the fun of waking up? the joy of finding these delusions out? the joy of correcting incorrect knowledge and organizing?. All these cycles? And we don’t know how long these cycles might last. Maybe it is kind of like the yugas in Hindu mythology lasting 1000's of years. Maybe even delusion is an integral part of this whole cyclic game or universe of interconnected patterns.

Changing energies, origins of I, diffusal of focal points

I have a perception of me, my priorities, mental maps etc. and EVERYTHING ELSE in my perception is JUST a filler. Here the duality of lack and fulfillment operate. But if I totally relax or rest my self-definitions, priorities and feelings of separateness then I zoom out into another level where many new states of consciousness open and everything that was in the periphery before, actually becomes me. In truth every single thing that I can perceive, experience, be aware of, cognize etc. is me. There is no solidity to anything. Everything is just of miasma of movement and continuous change. Identity is for social convenience just like time. It has no intrinsic reality or essence. We give meaning to the stories, projections, images and videos and finally the physical experiences they cause. But nothing has any essence. Everything is the same basic substance - consciousness scape/water in an ocean. Just like we have a dreamscape for dreams, you can objectify and go through tons of emotions in the dream but when you wake up it’s all gone. How substantial is that? Isn't that the reason people dismiss it as unreal? Extending the same logic, isn't our reality also quite similar with experience being everything? The objects, identity, concepts, priorities, projections are all products of a man made social mind. How can that be taken as something real? Yet we stick to that and live thinking we are a separate individual with a separate identity for the rest of our lives. Why is that not ridiculous then? If I slap you, will you say the pain is you? Isn't the experience of how we call ourselves also ever-changing especially in pure body sensations and thoughts?

By continuous reinforcement from childhood we have created a somewhat solid entity of ourselves. Because of the reinforcement and habits formed (thinking, physical actions etc.) we create this persistent imagination or phantom of who we are and believe that for the rest of our lives. Society pressures you right from birth to define an identity which is why the first thing done is give you a unique name. After that the separateness of things is gradually instilled by associating each object with a sound in language. You tell a child this blue color thing in your hand is called "pen" by repeating the word pen again and again whenever the child holds it. We do this for all objects including the child's identity itself. Initially the child associates the blue object as "pen". But the next day you show another red pen and then repeat the word "pen" again. Now the child is a bit confused but it combines the common characteristics of the two and improvises on its concept of the pen. In this manner, but repeating words again and again for different situations the child is in, we reinforce, improvise and broaden definitions of all concepts for the child. 

Once its older, its definition of pen becomes refined like this:

Any object with the following properties:

·         function - to write on paper or on a digital instrument by hand

·         properties - shape, color, texture, material, mechanical parts, affordances

·         typical pen - writes in blue color, is long cylindrical and has a handle and a press button on top

Now this is a micro example of the pen object just to show how a child learns concepts. Along with teaching the child all these concepts, you also teach it a mothership concept of "identity - me". Whenever a child is having pain, you tell the child "you are always having pain" OR if people do not like the child much you say "you are not desirable to people". Now the child attaches this painful experience or the undesirability to its definition of self. Just like the pen example, the child builds up and improvises this definition of itself. Once the definition matures a bit, it starts using the word 'I' and memory starts to function. That is why we do not have any memories of the time before 3 or 4 years of age. Think about it, if you don’t know what to look at among 1 billion stimuli, how can your memory work?, what will you store?. So identity gives you definitions, priorities and maps for what is important and what is not and once this is well formed, your memory can start to function. So bringing up a child is actually a supreme act of creation.

So it’s a funny paradox. This filter that prioritizes what we should do, what is important, what is not, where our energies must flow, what experiences should we seek, what should we move towards etc. is created first and then we have our identity formed. Only after the identity is formed do we have memory. The funny part is we look back on memory to find out why we are like this. Why we are like this cannot be found in memory because the identity was prior to that. It’s a job done by your parents/circumstances/social interactions/experiences at an early age over which you have no control. That is why identity is a socially created phenomenon. It is not intrinsic and that is why part of enlightenment is seeing through this completely. It is just like any other concept but we take it extremely seriously because we think it is something solid or real.

The truth seems like a pure de-conditioning of all perception of who we are. That is why they say the "Who are you?" question will eradicate all your doubts. People take the doubts so seriously but never question the beliefs/paradigm/assumptions on which the doubt resides. We just have to intensely look into it and absorb it so intensely that we instantly see how all of it is empty of essence just like the feeling of a slap is not attached to you. One we advance sufficiently to see through our entire identity and its assumptions/beliefs, many dualities start to disappear like the perceiver and perceived become one; The knower and the known become one; and there is absolute freedom just like becoming lucid in a dream and being able to do absolutely anything. All that is needed is total relaxation and allowance of everything as it is at every moment. Every time you relax into anything, you diffuse its importance and it allows you to see how other options maybe equally probable or valid.

Relaxing is basically a zooming out. Suppose you were on the ground and standing just beside a tall building, the building looks very large and massive. But what if I took you 13000ft up in the air for a skydive, this large building just looks like a small dot. What if I took you to outer space - could you even see the building? In a sense ideally as we grow up this is what should happen - i.e. a broadening of our identity and diffusal of individual parts based upon all the new experiences we have.

All reference points and even existence is an idea that slips in and out. You simply relax into all those ideas and perspectives. Even alan watts theories has so many reference points or angles. What disappears in 5 seconds is not real. The desire to find the ultimate reference point is from insecurity. It acts as a middle man between the world and the interpreter (ego). You exist is a prerequisite for anything even the experience absolute consciousness.

Relax all focus points and center in the bliss - it’s just surrendering everything - causeless realm is where bliss is - it doesn’t know anything - it’s the nature of innocence - get out of all stories, analysis, philosophizing, giving importance to anything etc. - experience your experience without focusing on it - no objectifying - its absolute relaxation in timelessness - awareness is the space in which duality occurs - personal development in for improving personality, focus is still on causation, in management mode, it’s not freedom, it’s helpful in the relative plane - freedom is causeless and timelessness, there is no independent nature or essence to things, all are expressions of one life, perceptions in one awareness, everything is water. We attach experiences like happiness to certain objects - it’s like there is a map of images and accordingly our experiences are felt - this is the illusion 

Symbolism - projections - words are just empty - mind pictures/movies are empty - it’s all deconstruction to reach enlightenment - If I seek an experience, can I maintain it for the rest of my life? - like watching the laptop screen and imagining the movie - OR dreaming in the night and projecting onto a dreamscape that just fizzes away - So what is the image of wellness, analyze each component, is it a valid image, how long will it last, can it last forever? - this is the man made/social mind - imagine the most stressful state and look at it critically and it’s still possible to allow it and see - it’s so beneficial to see the emptiness because it helps you rest more and more and get real freedom - happiness is not an image (the images are empty) it’s more of a relief and allowing everything to be right here - enlightenment as a word is empty and when you fully imagine what it would look like the emptiness can be seen - it’s simply the inescapable seeing and the emptiness of everything - in a relative world, all words point to things - Ask the question: What am I doing? What if I stop everything and just be ‘non-doing’. I have to investigate how many things disappear.

Origins of separation and strategies

Whatever you focus your attention on becomes your experience. Description points experiences a lot in daily life. Separation is enhanced by description/contextual thinking and reduced by relaxation. Without words there is no sense of separation. Even sense of separation is a part of separation. If it doesn’t look like that it looks like this - based on belief in a sense of separation itself. the minute you describe, it’s a new story. Longer more detailed stories appear more inherent. Separation is just a particular state of consciousness. Only the thinking is creating the sense of separation. Relaxing dissolves this.

How much separation is originally coming from sensory experience? Is there a single word in the universe outside your mind? Everything is a confirmation of awareness. We love the thought of love, peace, joy. 'You exist' is transcendental and exists simultaneous with everything else like the lowest common denominator. When you see the dualities they self-destruct each other into peace and freedom. Only a thought can be against of another thought. Let every experience be a confirmation of your existence/aliveness/awareness.

What’s the use of knowing what we already know? You don’t want to make sense of it, put together some thoughts together so that things can be left - You want to understand to let go, trust and be. We may really want to just be. We keep questioning and when an answer satisfies we are in bliss and relieved till the next question.

Extending identity to all perceptions

Its too easy to fall in love with pleasant perceptions. In fact it is almost automatic and effortless. The challenging part is to love everything that arises even the most grotesque of forms and feelings. After all everything we perceive is who we are. We are inseparable from all kinds of perception or more like the space in which perception is happening. If we hold on to a small set of perceptions, call it 'Me' and treat everything else as external and push it away, its ignorance of this fact. There is a interconnected system referred to as the physical body that moves with you but you are FAR larger than that. You are the perceiver behind the machine and the machine itself is highly interconnected to its environment.

Subjective time vs clock time

If electrical signals are much faster in an ant's brain (since its far simpler) as a result of which it has subjectively lived a lot longer than we think, then, on similar lines, would a more intelligent human being feel time pass really fast since the signals take a long time passing through creating intricate perception?

Social Interaction / Awareness / Fragmentation

What is the deepest truth about social interaction. Why do we need it? Is it a physical need or a purely mental need? Is it conditioning dependent or independent? What exactly feels bad when I'm alone? Is being with people like expanding your mind by attaching other modules which communicate with you in a certain protocol (cultural rules) through a certain medium (language)? Is that the main reason? OR is it related to safety? A feeling of being safe because you have multiple minds invested in your security? If it was just physical security, the solitary confinement chamber in prison would guarantee great security. But probably social interaction is security for all your mental troubles.  If its a need for stimulation, it is there everywhere abundantly in all the sensory objects around me. But sensory objects do not really exist beyond perception and it is the perceptions we want. Maybe being alone locks you into a certain perceptual state and interacting with other people provides a change of perceptions. But interacting with one person or group for too long again locks you up in a similar situation from which you seek to escape. So the greatest fear seems cessation of experience or death. The second greatest fear is locking of an experience in a certain paradigm for extended periods like a 9-5 typical job assuming doing exactly the same kind of things for decades. The most limited our scope of experience, the more our fear is until it collapses at 0 (death). By the universal principle of duality, having fundamentally different and altered states every single day will wipe out predictability and stability. That would be the fear of losing all coherence and absolutely going crazy. The most fearful areas seem to exist on the ends of the continuum. So we think we want pleasure, but actually what we really seek is freedom of perceptions. Craving arises when the reality is unbalanced. Imagine your right side of your body is heavier than your left side causing you to tilt to the right and you have to put constant effort to be straight. So you pray that your body should be heavier on the left side. But if that happens once again, you tilt to the left and you want the right side to be heavier again. So here the left side could be suffering and the right side could be pleasure. The ideal would be an equally balanced left and right sides and you have the freedom to tilt to whichever direction you want anytime which is the case now, which is why you do not even have this desire.

Awareness itself occurs continuously against a background of nothingness. If you background is nothingness, you are supremely alive. If your background is what you call the subconscious or aspects of reality outside your awareness then your reality is accordingly evolving. The social structures which allow manifestation of emotions are highly slow moving and subject to many many constraints. Thats why its so difficult to perceive these higher truths. You are often locked into a particular identity and functional expectations and roles, a certain culture such that you are in a way trapped. So you keep making small efforts in your everyday life to break out of this and dream of total freedom. But this whole dream is fueled by the lack. The poor dream of being rich and die with that dream. A man with a boring life dreams of adventure all his life. The great adventurer if unbalanced dreams of a stable loving safe secure home environment. The fantasy drawn individual dreams of wonderful utopian worlds which are wonderful only with the background memory of your current situation. If you were born in that utopia, you would not even perceive it to be 'UTOPIA'. The utopia would be the ordinary in that case.

Another difficulty in understanding this is the whole fragmentation of our awareness. Our awareness jumps between numerous micro identities throughout the day. Each of these identities is an unbalanced reality and therefore having a certain desire. We are confused because which one would you satisfy? One of them would want adventure and one of them wants comfort and security. You may plan the adventure while you are in a certain identity and then suddenly want the opposite when the date arrives because you have shifted to a different identity. The ultimate 'Point of seeing' or depth possible is nothingness. So we deepen awareness by increasing our power of observation of these states.  Starting off with the gross and then penetrating to the subtler and subtler planes. Gross and subtle are not 2 different things. The particles of the gross are progressively splintered in subtler and subtler states. Like crushing sugar into smaller and smaller particles. Every single aspect of the self: memory, concentration, awareness, outer sensory reality should be investigated at finer and finer levels. Scientific investigation is a long way off this depth since science itself is resting on a particular paradigm. Its basically does not take into account the aspects of the observer itself. It does not delve into the non-material aspects which are bundled up into metaphysics, subjectivity, pseudo science, paranormal, mystical stuff. It is a certain method developed for investigation of truth and belief in this is so strong because it offers explanation to most of the outer observed phenomena. Its function dependent. 'How to do something' in the material/sensory world is in the realm of science. Not why you want to do anything in the first place? why are we even here? what is the nature of everything I know etc. these are hard problems not addressed. Objectivity is just consensus reality and this reality is just a small bunch of currently popular paradigms. These paradigms are not true objectivity, they are just loyal to the rules and assumptions not to the truth. An entire human civilization of billions of minds may communicate based on certain basic assumptions for convenience. But the assumptions are like lines of longitude, numbers etc. or concepts. That is why untenable arguments are possible because it is very difficult to spot those assumptions in the massive tight interconnected web of all concepts built over the basic ones.

Centered in nothingness/everythingness with absolute freedom is the ultimate dream or enlightenment.

Social groups and investments

Most groups form because there is an implicit knowledge they share. If you had a very different upbringing, this knowledge would not be implicit. In some ways it’s also tendencies. For example: If you have never been a groupie, you are unlikely to move to that mindset in future unless there is a real need. The tricky part with social relationships is investments. Social investments take time, energy, freedom and time from you. But these investments also accrue with time. Lets take an example of a person who had a  lifestyle with minimum investment and much higher solitary time during childhood. He would have therefore not have gained a lot of exposure to the various relationships that exist in social life. In adulthood, if he wished to suddenly switch, it would be difficult because of lack of foundation. It’s like wanting to be a millionaire overnight when all your life you have lived in middle class. 

Societal structures involving money and social relationships are slow moving and take intention, energy over a certain time to manifest. If you personality is in a unique exotic place, then that is exactly what you’ll be. It’s like again and again trying to mix incompatible substances and expecting them to dissolve into each other. 

The fun of this game is that, an identity gets created in childhood until you are 6, and then in adulthood, you seek to reverse engineer the whole thing and reclaim all of your freedom along with a deep understanding of all the ways this realm of reality works. Most people just perpetuate their childhood identity and live life in that psychological space with limited awareness. If it is serving most of their needs and if they have enough dreams in their identity blueprint that they believe in, they would not inclined to really understand the matrix itself.

All of experience/life as relationship

The definition of all objects exists with respect to the context i.e. in relationships to ALL other objects. There are infinite definitions for objects possible because there are infinite grouping combinations possible.

For example: If there are 5 objects, I would have to apply permutations and combinations to find out how many relationships (set groupings) are possible.

 

There are 32 ways of perceiving 5 objects in various relationship pairs. So there are 32 ways in which these 5 objects can be perceived.

Learning involves both putting awareness into new objects (experience packets) and their relationships too which mature over time. In our trillion cells in the brain, the number of relationships possible is infinite. Imagine permutations and combinations with a trillion – 1 followed by 1 lakh zeroes == infinity. This is why there are infinite realities and each person resides in a unique infinite whole. You can have infinite infinities and all of them are wholes. We have parts and wholes only for finite discrete systems, not for the paradigm of the infinites. (In the paradigm of certain assumptions, like what defines the smallest unitary particle based on our sense perceptions or technology relevant).

Change is seen as abrupt only when your awareness is partial. The movement of light looks immediate to our visual sense. But the flow of light itself can actually be witnessed by using a super slow motion camera. The person living in low awareness would have life filled with abrupt changes. To escape this, he might stay in a very narrow band of experience which is tolerable for him and reality would be quite uncomfortable because of this lack of knowledge.

Imagine a tea cup sliding from your desk and falling off in just 4 frames i.e. 4 discrete steps. If your awareness was much higher, let’s say you see the same movement but in 30 frames. Now you have many more frames to stop this tea cup from falling. So extend this analogy to everything.