Friday, June 27, 2014

Insights on weed - Jun 28, 2014

- Every thing in reality is a movement of consciousness you are doing.
- Movement to go deeper, extricate emotion connection to the 'basic more superficial feeling'.

Scan of chakras: Functions
- Crown - transcendent, beyond, connection to other fundamentally different realities. (7-D)
- Forehead - vision, clarity, seeing, connection to other realities and modes, non-duality perception possible. (6-D)
- Throat - saying something very emotionally, doing (5-D)
- Heart - love, interest, fascination (4-D)
- Solar plexus - bliss projected, opening up emotional frame, center of will, what is going on is right (agreeable, accepted) (3-D)
- Sexual - desire, pain, pleasure (2-D)
- Root - reptilian instincts of fear and safety. (1-D)

- To go beyond the body concept, just shift attention to non-body elements.
- 6th or Thinking creates another experience, its another movement kind, it does not help you see what's actually happening.
- I can move consciousness in different ways by giving energy to any of these centers.
- Reality creation is from attention.
- The sixth does not control the other chakras. I only think it does. In fact it adds more movement and also creates the appearance of it doing it - delusion. All activity of the sixth is a delusion because the thought space can completely change.
- Im living in a mental universe if I'm living in the 6th.
- Imagine a brain in each center. And when focusing on one, imagine there is only a brain there and just the cord.
- Even all that I have written now is an illusion , even the notion of a body and its outlines is an illusion.
- This world is created by the spirit and it can instantly materialize a world (one of the worlds has the notion of a body and focusing on it). But we are believing this world and the belief is the unconscious energy that solidifies it for us.
- Each chakra is a vortex extending mostly forward and more backward vs sideways.
- I'm imagining this world up. The spirit is imagining this whole world body and all systems up. Withdrawing this projection will end the world. The forehead can move to different worlds and realities.
- There is no part of me being aware, or doing the awaring, I am just aware. If I am using the 6th chakra to be aware, then it is a particular flavor of it. There is a different flavor when I am not using the 6th and directly looking. But I get my personal model of reality interpretation from the 6th.
- Persistent dream created because I have not given fine attention to how I am projecting this out.
- Everything is made up of my stuff.
- With open eyes there is a particular flavor of reality. When I close my eyes and imagine my body another flavor. When I focus on images and movement of the 6th, another flavor (disappearance of the body/world model).
- The 6th is dreaming the world up, thats why it can lucid dream.
- Speed of change and movement increases as I move to higher chakras. The lowest is the most stable and slow moving, connection to solidity, feeling of permanence. As I move higher, its easier to change/modulate the chakra energy.

Scan of chakras: Emotion speed and intensity
- 7th - Transcendent level intensity emotion
- 6th - speed of thought, movement of perception. Reality changing intensity emotions, flash of insights level.
- 5th - Throat is at the speed of expression - through singing, subvoc, playing musical instrument, very high intense emotions.
- 4th - care, concern, softness, gentleness, very moving/touching, really feeling, high intense emotions - love/hate
- 3rd - feelings of safety/insecurity, medium intensity emotions.
- 2nd - Stable primitive slow moving emotions, giving sense of permanence.
- 1st - Very very slow moving emotions, root instincts, preservation
- Meditating on the lower 3 chakras gives sense of stability and security and slow movingness.

- The upper 4 chakras are faster moving, dynamic, swiftly dancing in movement getting faster and faster as we move higher.
- Seeing multiple worlds themselves would be in the 6th to 7th.
 - Chakras are a particular flavor of this (manifestation plane) accessed by 6-D and put down by the 7-D.
- 6th contains the belief filter and gives permission to the chakras to open and release according to the interpretation.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Any dependence is bondage

If you are dependent on anything, if you need anything, then you will also have all of that thing's limitations. By believing you need anything, you are signing up for a limitation of some kind. Be it drugs, a relationship, sex, a particular workplace, apt, city, country etc.

Movement is the self itself

 The self understands itself through movement. In fact movement is self. If there is no movement, there is no self. Its the fundamental drive to move towards expansion, variety, memory, richer meaning, richness of experience (quantity and quality). That's why when doing nothing, an impulse arises to move or boredom/dis-satisfaction works to promote exploration.

Its circular and the grandest game ever. Each lifetime is a wave of the cycle. waking, dreaming and sleep are all cycles going over the zero line. Understanding all the cycles and their workings is the liberation. Liberation is not in any particular state of mind/or a particular way of perceiving/or a particular experience since that is just one particular kind of movement of the wave. Reality cannot be one particular state or one particular pattern of movement. It is all the infinite patterns of movement and all of the substrate being moved. That is why it is said all of samsara is a cycle. If everything is cyclic, how can there ever be an end? True Existence is completely fathoming this mystery with every molecule of your being/experience.

I have noticed keenly that I do not really listen clear regarding what my experience is trying to communicate to me. The entire of experience is always there, but I have some patterns/systems of guilt, fear, attachment etc. that create so much of turmoil preventing me from seeing clearly like fog or stormy clouds which prevent you from seeing the sky, the stars or the sun. The struggle creates an intense motion blur making it almost impossible to see anything. The forces of guilt, fear etc. are obscuring forces manifesting struggle, confusion, disconnectedness, fragmentation, turmoil, resistance and so forth. I need to understand all the obscuring/distorting/fragmenting forces.

In fact, if I just stop all of that, and ask myself, and look at what my experience is really trying to tell me, It actually communicates extremely clear. Its just that there is this huge protective force field that needs to be fully stilled down, to read the clear messages give. My technique is just be alone in a dark room and plainly look at what is happening without distortion/manipulation/blurring it/disconnecting from it/distracting yourself etc. and after a while everything is visible clearly. Its like seeing through all of the fog and struggle, what the subtle experience is trying to communicate to you.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Part 2: Infinite thought sandwiches/interwoven spirals

Infinite sandwich like manifestation happening in the ultimate reality/The screen of consciousness:
…thought - emotion - thought - emotion - thought - emotion…
…DE(direct experience) - belief - DE - belief - DE - belief - DE…
…destiny - choice - destiny - choice - destiny - choice - destiny…
…chicken - egg - chicken - egg - chicken - egg - chicken - egg…
…cause - effect - cause - effect - cause - effect - cause - effect...

They are like infinite interwoven tapestries with no beginning and no end:
- So every event is equally both a cause and an effect simultaneously.
- In existence, choice and destiny manifest simultaneously.
Choice is a destiny. Destiny is a choice.
- Both the chicken and egg were created simultaneously. Every chicken needs an egg. Every egg needs a chicken. There cannot be a chicken without an egg. There cannot be an egg without a chicken.
- Beliefs create experience. Also, experience creates belief. Both are true simultaneously.No beliefs = No experience, also No experience = No beliefs.
- Every thought causes an emotion to arise. Every emotion causes a thought to arise.

Everything is inseparably connected and dependent on everything else for its existence. The entire of creation is a simultaneous moment (beyond time). Seeing things as cause/effect is the limitation of our linear thought.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Is Life Pre-determined(Destiny) or do we have a choice?

This is an interesting question. As I ponder over this question, I realize its surprisingly complex.

I could say:
It was my choice to do this right now.
It was my destiny that I would choose to do this right now
It was my choice to think in this way that 'It was my destiny to make this specific choice right now'.
I was destined to make this choice to think that 'It was my choice to choose to think that it is my destiny to make this choice right now.
....and so forth.
It is like an infinite thought sandwich.
...choice - destiny - choice - destiny - choice - destiny - choice - destiny...

Its like 2 mirrors facing each other and reflecting each other infinitely.
Choice is reflected by destiny. Destiny is reflected by choice.
They both are inseparable from each other, since they mutually create each other.

If everything was destined, how can choice exist. Things would happen exactly as per the pre-determined. Also if that were the case, even the word destiny would be meaningless because what would you compare it against.
If we had absolute choice, then you would do exactly what you want to do, when you want to do it.
In this case, destiny is meaningless, but what does 'choice' even mean in that case, if that is the one and only reality anyway?
So the 2 concepts are a dualistic pair. Just like all the other dualistic concepts - light/dark, day/night, happiness/sadness etc. The duality pairs mutually create each other simultaneously. They appear together and disappear together. If one exists, the other is inevitably implied.
In fact that's where the entire play of creation stems from the splitting of the Absolute ONE into TWO. There is no creation without duality (Creation/destruction duality is implicit even when you use the word creation).

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Pillars of Enlightenment

Equivalent terms (they all mean exactly the same thing in direct experience):
Complete Acceptance = Effortlessness = 0 Resistance = Full Equanimity = Weightlessness = Bliss = Total Peace.

3 Pillars of Enlightenment (Shinzen):
(Directed Focused Attention)

Sensory Clarity
(Seeing the different flavors of everything clearly)

(100% Attention, 0% Resistance)

Extra most important pillar:
(Seeing from the 'Screen of reality' point of view)

3 Pillars of Enlightenment (Buddhism):Impermanence
(Change is Eternal.
Change is what makes beauty and life possible.
Change is what makes even perception possible.
'Knowing' itself is possible only because of change.)

(No 'Thing' can satisfy you. Only 'Nothing' can :))

(There is nobody who knows, there is only knowing.
The person who appears to know is also part of the knowing.)

The Unfindable subject:
In the subject-object paradigm, the subject perceives the object.
But the dilemma here is, when you look for the subject, another object is found.
How can you find the subject, if whatever you find is an object?
The answer is, the subject is inherently unfindable and an infinite mystery.
The nature of the subject is an infinite mystery, unknown, infinite potential.

So the true perceiver is inherently unknowable, just like a fire cannot burn itself, or a knife cannot cut itself.
This is what is meant by return to your unborn self.
Because the 'born' self that you think you are, is the object and not the subject.
If you think you are any object, then you are dreaming.
You are the awareness that is aware of the screen itself, all of the screen contents are made up of your substance.
Everything that has ever appeared to you in your life is made up of your substance.

So the trick is to turn awareness on itself, instead of being aware of an object.
Being aware of the subject is like awareness being aware of awareness, therefore realizing itself by itself.
It is the ultimate unification.

Qualities of a diamond mapped to experience

The ideal +ve experience is where the mind is like an infinitely large diamond that is clear, does not hold anything but yet, reflects/refr...